I am Beloved?  Why?

Better yet- How?

From where?

Who says?


Dictionary definition: “a person who is greatly loved”.

I’ve read lots of books about being “beloved”.  Some of them are at the top of my favorite books list.  Here’s a quote from “Abba’s Child” by Brennan Manning.  He is quoting another author Henri Nouwen.  The quote is taken from a letter Nouwen wrote to a close friend.

“All I want to say to you is this, ‘you are the Beloved’, and I hope that you can hear these words as spoken to you with all the tenderness and force that love can hold.  My only desire is to make these words reverberate in every corner of your being – ‘You are the Beloved’. “

Manning follows up by writing; “Anchored in this reality, our true self needs neither a muted trumpet to herald our arrival nor a gaudy soapbox to rivet attention from others.  We give glory to God simply by being ourselves.”

I love, love, love this quote.  The margins next to it in the book are scribbled in and there are several exclamation points-an indicator of how much these words mean to me.

The trouble was, I couldn’t take them into myself.  They were gorgeous words on a page, but I couldn’t figure out how to let them be my words and do mythical, mysterious magic in my heart.

Here’s the thing about being human.  We are deeply loved by God.  (the Universe, the Divine, etc..)  He loves what He has made and He made us. (He works for me-something else might work for you-the point here is not to put the Almighty in a religious box) We came from Something, and Something loves us deeply.  So why do so many of us live as less than Beloved?   Less than one who is greatly loved? We are disconnected.

You have to love yourself first.  You have to find yourself worthy of being loved.  Worth  being called the Beloved. Worthwhile.  If you are disconnected from yourself, you are, in painful reality,  disconnected from everything else around you.

I spent many years being a church lady (more on this in another post), I said lots of good words, that I think, probably helped lots of people.  But they didn’t help me, not really. During that time I was completely disconnected from myself. If you had asked me if I loved myself, I would have quickly said yes, because that’s what I wanted you to know about me, and what I wanted to be true about myself.  The real truth was, that I deep down really pretty much hated myself. Yes.  The way I got around in the world was to travel as this mostly together, terribly false person I had created so I could cope with life.  Ugh. Glad those days are done…

This is some personal heavy duty stuff to share. I'm putting myself out there, because I am not the only one who has been or might currently be unplugged and disconnected from herself.  There are lots of us out there, and if we don’t start being real and telling our stories, how are we ever going to be light and hope for someone else?  Sharing your light and hope is what helps heal our world and all the sore and broken people in it.  I guarantee there is a woman in your life right now, and perhaps she is you, who needs desperately just to love herself.  This world needs your very special light and hope….now.

Back to what Manning wrote; “we give glory (we honor) God by simply being ourselves.”  I’d like to take that further and say that we honor God by simply loving ourselves.  When we love ourselves, then the simple act of authentically being, does indeed honor that Someone who made us.

I want to go on record saying that I believe in miracles.  Period. Small and large. The miraculous has transformed my life.  No kidding, there have been so many piles of inner crap to wade through-had not it been for the powerful hand of that Miraculous Someone, I do honestly shudder to think where I might be.

Don’t know how to love yourself? That’s OK, I didn’t either.  Ask for a miracle to come and melt and renew your heart. It’s simple and profound and eternal.  Your miracle will come as certainly as the sun will rise and set with the dawn and dusk of each day.

You are on my mind friend, and tug at my heart. I will be thinking of you-hoping that love for all the wonder and beauty that is you, will find you deeply and completely.  I will pray that you will be forever changed by the simple act of  loving yourself.

You are the Beloved.  A woman who is greatly loved.

 


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10/29/2013 10:16am

First time reading this blog, just wanted to say hi.

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